14 January

 

My Dearest Erica,

 

It has been some time since I’ve taken pen to paper to write a few lines to you on the eve of my departure to join Capt. Kearney and the men to once again defend our home.  The thought of distance always prompts me to ponder the wonderful times we’ve had together as a family, and the idea of what it would mean to lose it all with one shot from the enemy.  It is not so much the fear of death, for I am confident in the Almighty’s plan for me in the here and now, as well as in the by and by.  Yet, I cannot shake the fear of you and my children mourning my passing while struggling to piece together that which we now call family.  It is that fear which haunts me most.  I pray that His grace would permit me just a few more years, in some quiet place, to enjoy the fullness of our love and sanctity once this cruel war is over. 

 

Do pray that I return unharmed from the upcoming fight.  We have lost some great men these last few months – a reminder of the fragile life we live.  If Providence sees to it that I return soon to your arms, I shall rejoice as though some great fortune has been bestowed upon us.  If I do not return, my sweet loving wife, see to it that our girls are raised to honor first their Father in Heaven, and then be reminded daily that their earthly father loved them dearly – wishing only for them to grow old as an instrument of His peace.  True, if this be God’s will, hold to your faith in the promise of the sweetest of reunions at His appointed time where I shall be waiting for you.

 

I close now and bid you farewell, my Love.  May the peace that surpasses all understanding sustain you during my absence – however long He sees fit.  Until then,

 

I am, your loving husband, 

 

1st Sgt. Wayne Alonzo

2nd Florida, Company E

Florida Battalion